Fake Happy.
Fake happy; what does it mean? My anxiety and depression have been at an all-time high lately. Trying to manage teaching classes, taking classes, and planning a wedding is no joke. This is supposed to be one of the happiest times of my life; I'm about to marry my best friend. But lately, everything that can go wrong has. I feel like I'm drowning. There is no time for self-pity, nor do I seek any. Depression fills my soul with sadness I cannot seem to wash away or come to reason with. Anxiety clutters my brain and makes every day task impossible. Having a happy personality and a sad soul is such a strange feeling. I don't think people understand how stressful it is to explain what's going on in your head when you don't even understand it yourself. When you're depressed, you don't control your thoughts, your thoughts control you. I struggle; some days are worse than others. But, the glory of it all it I rise each day to persevere. If you struggle with anxiety and depression, I want you to know that you're not alone. I use this platform to share my struggles of all sorts with you in hopes to help you in anyway. Xox kat
